Mrs him to be!

Love was exchanging chocolates, love was long conversations on messages, love was celebrating birthdays and love was waiting to see eachother smile…. We have grown a lot together and now love is exchanging warmth and growing up together….

For a long time vinay and me never felt we were in love…. We had gotten so used to hanging out together… sooner or later we did arrive at a conclusion that we were meant to share love and share a lifetime time together… and so it happened….

Back in those days vinay n me were great buddies… we got along together bullying the rest of our friends, played stupid games, hanged out on food joints and spent a lot of time together…. Yea…. We did eat a lot….and a lot did happen over coffee… Foodies that we are, chats, dosa, pasta, ice creams and pizzas… name it and we knew the the best places for it…. I still strongly believe food has kept our relation going good….I once remember making (n+1) number of akki roti for vinay and he kept relishing it like marathon eater!!!

Best buddies to being each other’s better half has not been all that easy…. But I must admit it was quite pampering…. I was always and I am his darling princess and he proudly claims so…. As a teen I never dreamt of the prince on a white horse…..and never did violins play in the background…. But I did blush each time anyone spoke about us…. I skipped a heartbeat when he looked into my eyes…. And I did fall in love over and over again with his melting warmth….. he is always a charmer…..!!!

Friends who now us agree strongly with me that we both have never given up on eachother…. Jinxed to this extent that we have always argued on silly matters…. (its only me who could cry n make a hue though)…. Slammed phone calls and walked off conversations… this did not last long…. One of us gave up (obviously it was always him) and it was all rosy again…. J

He has probably ensured I have had everything I need and has been a giver to all my unbearable demands…. Stubborn to my being, we have shared a lovely relation…. Warmth of those million hugs and those melting smiles…. A person to trust, a friend to be and a partner to celebrate life with….

Time’s swayed by and he now decides to give me his name …. I blush… Mrs him to be… !!!!

365 – On all Odds!

We saw all seasons of love… melted in his arms, fought hot on ends, chill nerve stares and shared vibrant smiles. Somewhere amidst we heard chuckles of love that spread joy like wildfire. He loves me n it just got more evident every time I disagreed to agree…. Threw tantrums, got more stubborn than ever before and on the contrary, ensured to love each other enormously.

I was blessed with a big fat Indian Wedding – a 3 day marathon of colorful and blissful moments! I was a pretty bride and he was the guy I chose to hold onto the rest of my life.

That day still lingers my mind… My family dropped me back home and showed me the house to where I shall go on to belong… Mad silence and deep eyes – narrating a feeling of losing someone forever. I couldn’t bid bye to them in tears nor smiles. It was mere chaos in my head. One part of it wanted to run away faster and the other stuck on to not hurting my parents who I felt were more depressed. I am not sulking- I knew I will enjoy my days of being married- BUT I will never stop missing my days of not so being married. Thoughts of who will look after my parents, my niece and my family. It just felt like I was doing all this just by myself and me not being around seemed all void back home…. I could not connect the dots and I was surely not ready for a new home!

My new family treated me dinner that night. I did feel a little better. Yes! Food rejuvenates me J

Waking up in his arm to just see him staring at me… (I wonder how long he had continued to admire me sleeping) and the fragrance of henna on my hand filling the air around was surely a die-hard feel. Like many girls, I did cry buckets to be married to him… From Heaven. Obviously!!!

Each day was a dream I lived. I had always wished to lead a fairytale life. I imagined these days as a young girl and now cherish them as memories. Late night movies, junking on food, loud laughs, lazy weekends and day outs. The surprise element on birthdays, the goof ups to make a remarkable day and celebrating each day like a series of tom n jerry on the TV set! We watched a variety of movies from action, romance and drama to utter nonsense. It just dint matter what we watched. We just enjoyed each other’s’ company. Our life was as dramatic as that. From starring Puneeth Rajkumar to minions, we shared a slice of stupidity, drama and joy all the way!

365 million reasons debating in my mind to still not conclude if I am ready to be married! I enjoy it as much as I wish I could soar far away from it. I love the love we share, I hate the staying away from mom days! She is irreplaceable for sure. I could stretch my lazy bones when I get back home after the marathon traffic. I could demand for specific food from mom without a thought. I could pamper myself, feel safe, feel loved and cuddle up to her all the time. I feel all so grown up now. I cook for my family and myself (a big deal, I must say) – an art I learnt only lately, I clean the mess around and also pamper myself mentally that it’s all worth it. I fight those egos, I kill the jealousy jacks right in my head and heart out to see how much I am adored for who I am. I did voice out with my husband – “I am his age and never did what I am doing all my life… I cannot wash clothes, clean the kitchen, pray when asked to and cook huge quantities…. I screamed and felt I would break down….” My husband only stayed at peace assuring it would all be fine. I howled and cried and frustrated my anger out. It hit me one day- nobody expected it out of me. I slowly sat down to realize, I chose all the chores myself. I started enjoying them and it dint bother later on.

Blessed to be around with him as we complete a year together….from sunshine to moon haze… from cuddly love to cold days…. From being his better half to him being my best full….!!!! A year of which I shall always cherish…. A beginning to never ending joy…. A beginning to stay Mr. and Mrs. Each other!!!!